Watched the new episode of Stargate Atlantis last night. Was soooo good. Slowly getting used to Woolsey being in charge. He is starting to seem more human, and not so much the hardcase boss. I'm still upset that Carter is gone tho. I know Amanda decided to leave because of Sanctuary, but geez I'm still pissed off at how they wrote her out. Like she just wasn't even needed anymore.
Went to mums on the weekend. A friend of hers was having a birthday so we went and all just sat around the fire and drank and crapped on. Why do I always get really tanked around people who I shouldn't drink around? OMG! My 86 year old grandfather was there. I was drinking home made bourbon and coke and I don't remember half the night. Yeah its ok to get pissed with mates and stuff, but around the oldies.... COME ON! What the fuck is wrong with me! Maybe I just crave being around people so much that I'm willing to embarrass myself around anyone, just to be near them. Well em barres myself I did. I talked so much crap. Spilled my drink. And ended up chucking up for half the night when we got home. It was one of those times when the room spun the second I got in bed. Still felt crook the next morning. You know how you pass out (eventually. ...after the vomiting stops) and sleep for about 4 hours then wake up and toss and turn while you still feel like you are going to make the doona technicolour.
Well I finally gave up on trying to get back to sleep at around seven in the morning and went and watched telly. I have a feeling that my mother wasn't that impressed with me. And I kind of feel crap about letting her down too. She is the most important person in the world to me and I don't want to let her down. Sometimes I feel like shes the only person on this planet who even needs me.
Anyway, had school the last two days. Yesterday was fun. We were sitting at the computers learning all about MYOB when our teacher happened to mention how the centre next door was having like a health & relaxation afternoon. So we all decided to wag. Including our teacher. Got a nice little neck & shoulder massage. Then we sat there and had a bit of Reiki. Fuck thats interesting shit. They were just doing small relaxation sessions, not the full hog. The lady that did it to me said that I have problems around my throat area. Not being able to get words out and express myself. I suppose this blog is proof of that. I mean I'm just crapping on about what I've been doing. But it kinda freaked me out too cos I have to go have tests done on my throat on Thursday cos I've felt like I've got a lump in it for the last few months. HOW BAZAAR!!!!
Sorry for crapping on so much, I kind of got carried away . Once I start, I kind of just keep going.
1 comment:
haha kel thats soo funny.. i definately no that feelin wen the room is just spinnin wen ya tryin to get to slepp but all you gota do is chuck for hours to feel better... sooo eeww!!! haha
and bout the rest of it, i agree with you.. we have done our best to help now she has to help herself.. nuthin more we can really do..
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